My life - a rubiks cube
Sometimes I think my life is like a rubics cube... just when all the squares get lined up where they're supposed to be... someone or something comes along and messes it up and I don't know how to fix it.
There's a messed up rubik's cube on my desk right now. Can I tell you that I find it a beautiful array of diverse colour. I don't know how to get it back to its original position, but it has a use in its messed up state. It adds colour to my office. It reminds me that there are somethings I can't do alone. It's a challenge, and I like to surround myself with challenges. It just means I haven't given up on life... and it's something to entertain myself with in the meantime.
Jesus is the Master at solving the rubiks cubes of life. He takes joy in turning chaos into order... but also smiles on us though we stumble through the chaos... because he sees a beautiful array in our life that has come from messed up colour.
And that is what I am reminded of when I look at my rubiks cube
Treats
I was thinking... what are my favourite treats? What do I look forward to after a long day? When I want to spoil myself, what do I get?
Hot apple cider
Frozen yogurt
Anything with raspberries or peaches in it.
Anything stuffed (pillows, animals...)
2 dollar t-shirts or sweatshirts from Value village
And then I thought... what kind of treats does Jesus like. And I thought and I thought and I came up with one. When Jesus wants a treat, he finds his creation and delights himself with it.
I'm Jesus' treat. When he wants to spoil himself...he looks for me. I bring him joy and satisfaction. More than a hot apple cider or dish of peaches... Jesus like hanging out with me.
Change
Change. Sometimes it's necessary I guess. Sometimes I'm thrown into change without a choice. So I can fight and cry all I want and it won't make a difference. Things will change. And then I look at what has happened and I weep. I miss the way things were. I didn't want change. But it was out of my control this time. So I still cry, but after I wipe my tears I pray and ask God to find me a way to forge ahead. I need to accept the change, I want to accept the change... for them, for me for God. I can't forget but I can forgive and learn to adjust. I will embrace what new things have come. In time the pain will lessen. Change will be good
Moments with Jesus
I value my moments with Jesus. I wish sometimes I was more organized in my devotional times. I wish I was consistant in setting time aside in my day to commune with my Lord. But I find it a struggle to do that. And yet the Lord meets with me... Sometimes when I'm lying on my bed thinking about the day, we talk. Or when I'm flustered in the middle of my work day, I pause for a minute..."Lord, what are you thinking right now? Is what I'm doing in this moment pleasing to you?" And He fills me with His peace. He comes when I'm ready to meet with Him. He doesn't push or prod... He waits. And I slow down and He's there.
